Sooki had gone to work for the New York City Department of Healths Bureau of Animal Affairs right out of college. Catalpa flowers littered the sidewalk, though I hadnt realized the catalpa trees were in bloom. Please sign in to save videos. Kate DiCamillo is coming later on Wednesday. On the first Sunday in May, in the late afternoon, a storm kicked up, not expected but not a surprise either. She met Sooki Raphael,. I asked Sooki if she had any interest in trying psilocybin. I dont want you to feel like you have to stay downstairs, I said. A few weeks later Hanks' publicist asks if she will fly to Washington, D.C., to interview him as part of his book tour. Small, flat islands of boiled wool were resolutely attached to her scalp by the 2percent of hair that had not fallen out. You all did a book event. Shes Catholic. She was the New York City Bat Lady at 21. Sooki and I kept up a sporadic email exchange once the audiobook was done. Almost from the moment we finished that first practice, she identified it as part of her recovery, the thing she needed to stay alive. She liked to fly. She was painting. This text may not be in its final form and may be updated or revised in the future. Before I can start writing a novel, I have to know how it ends. Need to create a login? It turns out that the trial that they were running at the hospital where he worked was exactly the trial she needed. Sooki of the magnificent coat. All day long Sooki emailed me pictures of her family with the subject line Where is our other sister? I said, I have access to every article of clothing I own and I couldnt pull myself together to look as good as you do going to chemo.. How is it possible? I said as I complimented her again and again. She wanted to know about the book I was going to write next, the book I had just barely started thinking of. 17, 2019: Hey! Twenty-five people had been killed in the last round of tornadoes in Nashville, two months before. Sookis a pilot! Karl said. I would love to stay with you for my first night or two in Nashvilleit would be wonderful to spend some time with you. The artist said that the painting was a respectable copy from 1899 and sold for 25 francs (about $2,574 today). I told Sister Nena the whole story while we sat in the waiting room, her foot propped up on a wheelchair. Sooki sheltered-in-place with Patchett and her husband first coming to stay . It was a straight-line wind, a freak occurrence that came out of nowhere. The cherry blossoms hung on forever. The trip came together quickly. He's really interesting. I hear you, and I know that if I were in your shoes and you were asking me to stay with you it would seem impossible. You understand that other people dont live this way?. Can empty houses help solve homelessness? Will time be linear or can it stutter and skip? She wrote her thesis on bats and rabies. But have you seen my phone? Farleys mother fought two battles with cancer. But in her post, Wilson referred to her as the one thing she was destined to be: an artist. The paintings came from a landscape of dreams, pattern on pattern, impossible colors leaning into one another. Rene Fleming spent two years in Germany studying voice while she was in her twenties. Its just. Could I say that I would like to come see her? We talked about singing and touring and about the Opry. And painting and painting. I cant just stay here forever.. Don't have an account? So it really was what they said, a definitive spiritual experience? Shed seen people. You yourself are heartfelt, and all the love in the world has been expressed. Shed called me from outside the airport. I pulled up my eye mask. I woke up the dog and the three of us left in the darkness. This was what I knew about Sooki: She lived in Los Angeles. When we turned out the light that night I felt myself buzzing with happiness: After nearly three months of lockdown, we were going to have an adventure. I was in deep mourning for the loss of my best friend, and while I was and still am in shock, I could not ask anyone else to write this tribute. The story has started without my realizing it. One night after wed finished our yoga and meditation, we were lying on our mats, staring up at the ceiling. I have to know where Im going, otherwise I spend my days walking in circles. Still, it seemed possible I could get off the ride early by expelling the mushrooms. She was perfectly willing to talk, she wanted to, and now she was leaving in the morning. Its like youre going home to the Ukraine for the first time in ten years, I said as we loaded up coolers and bags. She was indefatigably pleasant and warm while maintaining her distance. It was Memorial Day, after all. I flew to New York early the next morning, took a car to New Jersey, signed several hundred books, attended a cocktail-party fund-raiser for the Book Industry Charitable Foundation, gave a talk in a crowded town hall, got to my hotel room in Manhattan at midnight, got up in the morning to tape a segment for the Today show, then was back on a plane. Thats worth everything.. The day I picked up Sooki from the airport in February she told me she would need to buy dry ice for Wednesdays. Still, Im able, for a while at least, to pick up the thread and walk it back. Our interactions stayed in the present: Do you want to go for a walk? As lockdown continues, the two women practice kundalini yoga and meditation twice a day. She looked like Los Angeles in winter. It was as if 98percent of her hair had fallen out, but somehow in the process, it had felted. With every passing day I seemed less able to say, Do you want to talk about this? Marriage meant that he would hear out what on the surface may have appeared to be a spectacularly stupid idea. All resources were now directed at a disease that was not the disease Sooki had. Much love. . KELLY: And the timing of this - she comes to live with you while she's doing the treatment, and this turns out to be the beginning of the pandemic. And then one night, for reasons I cannot imagine, we decided to do it all again before we went to sleep. Use this bar to access information about the steps in your cancer journey. Her father was in the hospital and she had driven down from Kentucky to take care of him. She was already gone. When they called, she asked them all the right questions. Hanks, by way of reciprocation, agrees to do the audio recording of Patchetts eighth novel, The Dutch House, and a sporadic email exchange between Patchett and Sooki develops into a friendship. No outfit ever showed up twice. It had been languishing in a pile by the dresser for a while, and Id left it there because of an unarticulated belief that actors should stick to acting. But the clinical trial she needed was here in Nashville at the hospital where my husband worked. Forgot your password? They knocked one another down like dominoes. By the time we sat down it was over. He recommends books and asks for recommendations. I had to listen to what she was telling me. Yoga and meditation for an hour in the morning was augmented with yoga and meditation for an hour at night. I was grateful. Karl was sitting on the front porch and he called for me to come out. I keep throwing things out. The ones who stayed turned out to be the ones I was interested in. Then Covid strikes; 2020 is all but canceled and its impossible for Sooki to go home. Like most of her paintings, the artwork from the exhibition is full of color only a soul eager to see the beauty in every day could translate onto canvas. UCLA would fold her into their trial, everything seamless. ", (SOUNDBITE OF STATIK SELEKTAH SONG, "TIME"). Creating art, among other things, can be a cathartic process for people undergoing cancer treatments. Sometimes I had to get right in front of her to hear what she was saying. And despite the fact that cancer has essentially been her whole life, Cuozzo has recognized herself as a lot more than a diagnosis by focusing on her life as a mother and an artist. I had gotten up in the dark to make stacks of sandwiches. Sooki agrees to stay for a few nights. Sooki was making dinner. As soon as the roaring thunder of approval eased, he pointed at me and said, She doesnt have any questions.. My husband, Ken, will come down for at least part of the time, once Ive started chemo, and I may have other visitors, so I think I will explore some other options in the area, but I cant tell you how touched I am that youve extended the offer. It would be another year before I saw my father again, an unimaginable unit of time in the life of a child. We started looking up articles on the Johns Hopkins website. I live fourteen minutes from the airport and five minutes from the hospital. Old habits. It had zero spiritual component. Sooki was married? I had pictured her going through this alone, a conclusion I reached on account of a lack of information and a florid imagination. Patchett is so 100 percent a writer that you get the feeling that her life doesnt happen unless she writes about it. I gained back twenty pounds, and have been back hiking the trails and at work full time. I didnt know what I was supposed to do, she told me later. Hanks, by way of reciprocation, agrees to How it happened is told in the title story ofThese Precious Days, Patchetts second collection of essays. Sooki Raphael, Mesa Tree, Topanga, from 'Vivid Series' 16 x 20 inches. Things can get very confused. If she missed a session, would her hair fall out anyway? A few more pages would send me off to sleep, so I went in search of a short story. Germline mutations in ATM, BRCA1, BRCA2, CKDN2A, PALB2, PRSS1, STK11 and TP53 are associated with increased risk of pancreatic cancer. It was her only chance of getting back safely anytime soon. They take magic mushrooms together (a good experience for Sooki, dreadful for Ann). I tried to enjoy it but it was difficult to breathe. Donations can be made in her name to Pancan.org or Seasave.org/oceanofsooki. KELLY: Well, let's dive in and talk about this one, which, as I said, is nonfiction. She moved to Nashville, Tennessee when she was six, where she continues to live. These Precious Days by Ann Patchett reviewed. I could see her doing it. To say that Patchett was impressed is an understatement. You think youre getting chemo three Wednesdays a month but really its a test to measure the effectiveness of kundalini yoga and kohlrabi. I had signed up for a farm-share box, and every week we were overwhelmed with pounds of mysterious vegetables. She wasnt about to tell me she looked good, but it was clear what I was talking about. 30, 2019: My kindness comes from sincerely wanting this recording to happen. She has to have children., It could happen. There was a sitting room downstairs, the library, her bedroom and bathroom. We had just passed Stuyvesant Park when the first tower fell. Pay attention, I told myself. Id written a childrens book and was about to go on tour. Curiosity is the rock upon which fiction is built.". We repeated these facts, we made them a mantra. This was what we did at the end of the day. When it. And I'm always taken aback because it feels a little like asking a parent, who's your favorite child? There was no hesitation on the canvases, no timidity. Dont worry about it, Tavia said. And anyway, its my fault. Ann Patchett one night happened to read a short story by the actor Tom Hanks, surprised by its literary quality. I cleaned out the freezer and the refrigerator and at every moment thought, We are so lucky. And also, she was very low on white blood cells. There was a delicacy about her that was well-suited to baldness. It was enough just to be together in all that darkness. The idea of the considerably longer trip to New York was good news. It doesn't say, go get a sack of Pepperidge Farm. . She looked at me. I sent you another book that will show up eventually, a tiny French novel I love called The Lost Estate (Le grand meaulnes) by Alain-Fournier. After dinner that night, Sooki and I sat on the couch and tried to watch a movie, but her phone on its leash began to ding and ding and ding, insisting on her attention. Whether you loved it or hated it may depend on your feelings about celebrity culture since the benevolent presence of Hanks and his wife, Rita Wilson, hovers in the background. You might not see how everything threads together as you read along, but when you look back from the end of the story, the map becomes clear. No one could keep up with her. There she was in the doorway, outlined in neon tubing. She was there and then she was gone and we wouldnt see her again until the next morning. Karl had started flying in Mississippi when he was ten. That didnt work. Except it was Sooki, and I liked her very much.. Everyone was laughing at his jokes because his jokes were funny. When we got home from our walk, I emailed Sooki and said that if she wanted Karl to check on the possibility of a trial in Nashville she should send her medical records. KELLY: Wow. I didnt say, This thing you live with every minute, this heaving horses skull, I held it for you today so that you could talk it out with the people who love you. That shed always been so careful not to cross any lines, not to advance herself through connections shed made through him. Sooki Raphael, Mesa Tree, Topanga, from 'Vivid Series' 16 x 20 inches. He was tall and slim, happily at ease, answering questions, signing books. By the time Sunday came the urgency would have passed. I was also greatly occupied by the bookstore. Sooki hadnt lost weight but she was losing her ability to project her voice. Do you want to come downstairs? she asked. Sooki got a stool and a towel and went to sit on the back deck. Thats been everything to me, and my life. At her first meeting with Hanks, Patchett also met his personal assistant, Sooki Raphael, whose unusual evening coat, its huge peonies . She painted. It must have fallen off my shoulder when I got in the car. Sooki was a tiny thing, with thick brown hair and olive skin. KELLY: My conversation this past fall with author Ann Patchett about her latest book "These Precious Days. document.getElementById( "ak_js_1" ).setAttribute( "value", ( new Date() ).getTime() ); Five-time GRAMMY Awardwinners and living legends, the Blind Boys of Alabama both defined and innovated traditional jubilee gospel, turning their live shows into roof-raising musical Multi award-winning Canadian singer-songwriter and pianist Laila Biali masterfully mixes jazz and pop, bringing virtuosity and unpredictability to songs that are concise and catchy (Washington Smothers Theatre, Pepperdine University 24255 Pacific Coast Highway, Malibu, CA. Jessica Everett, a genetic counselorat Perlmutter Cancer CentersPancreatic Cancer Centerat NYU Langone, encourages people in this category to look into possible screening options. She was supposed to lug this cooler with her to the hospital every week. I met the hosts of the event and a few people who worked for them. Tell me how you know her again? he asked. I've got mail today, from one of Hollywood's top stars - Tom Hanks. We were ready. Find contact's direct phone number, email address, work history, and more. I knew that she worried about her ninety-four-year-old mother in Rye Brook, New York, and read to her grandchildren in San Diego over Zoom. I knew people in college and graduate school who took mushrooms, and then about thirty years passed before I heard anything about them again. She went inside to see for herself. Lucy said she didnt have time for this. I stood there, close, willing myself not to fill in her sentences. Plans were made for Sooki to come to Nashville. She painted as fast as she could get her canvases prepped, berating herself for falling asleep in the afternoons. Once she gets here and sees the way things are, shell be fine.. There was only color and the color was keeping time with the music, color breaking apart into tiles the size of Chiclets, the color of Chiclets, from which cathedrals rose in the sacred spirit of the Johns Hopkins playlist. Our house was a holding pattern, a neutral space without expectation where all that mattered was her recovery. This is what I need, she said, excited. I would bring her stacks of art books from the closed bookstore and she all but ate them. And this is how Sooki became part of something bigger than herself, pure art destined to express the beauty and mystery of the world that she could see more than most of us can. I was sorry for what Id done to him, by which I meant poisoning myself. I was no longer sick or well. Below is my story. Copyright 2022 Topanga New Times, Published by Design Like It Matters, Inc. Login to add posts to your read later list. . Had I thought it through, I never would have had the nerve to ask in the first place. RELATED: For Actor Val Kilmer & Millions Fighting Cancer, Theres New Evidence Art Helps Reduce Anxiety, Theres no clock on creativity, Wilson wrote on Instagram. we asked. Common sense and a book - that's all you need. Ours was an ephemeral connection common to the modern world. Well, over the next few minutes, we're going to revisit the moment I did admit that there is one author whose books I am guaranteed to gobble up, who I will read every time - Ann Patchett. If asked if she could go any place, that place would always be home. Love became Much love. I desperately wanted to vomit, to turn back time. Sooki had had a toucan in college. I wonder, I said to her one night while we walked Sparky around the block, do you think youre a good assistant because youre a private person, or did you become a private person because youve been an assistant for a long time?. You okay? Sooki asked. It was a minor footnote considering everything I got from Karl, but still, the warmth of it, the love: to walk in the door after a long two days and see that someone had imagined that I might be hungry knocked me sideways. a link to a 20,000-word story in Harpers, New book relives chaotic 2020 news cycle in a good way, A Black descendent of Thomas Jefferson brings her ancestors out of the shadows, Amazon releases its best books of 2021 list: 'An embarrassment of riches', Your California Privacy Rights/Privacy Policy. 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She was just coming out for, really, a matter of days so she could start it here and then fold into the UCLA trial. Do you even realize your life isnt normal? Niki said when I announced my trip. The producer of the audiobook sent me an article about Sooki from a 1978 issue of New York magazine. Because then, it won't just be me; it will be the entire world of people in my head. Every morning before breakfast, we waved our hands in the air. How other people live is pretty much all I think about. Ann Patchett and Tom Hanks' assistant? When it becomes difficult for Sooki to find a hospital to deliver the clinical trial and chemo she needs, Patchett and VanDevender discover that it can be done at the hospital in their home town, Nashville. "Uncommon Type." Sooki was Tom's assistant. No one will bother you there. The station happened to be next door to the airport, so everyone picked up their coolers and walked over. There is another guest suite on the main floor and we live on the top floor. My friends who had tried it all had positive experiences, new books extolled the virtues of seeing the beauty and connectivity of all life, and there was a chance that this experience, coming so far out of left field, might be just the thing Sooki needed. My goal was to maintain neutrality. On Thursday morning I started to cry while walking Sparky. Im self-conscious about being in the way, especially if Im not at my best through chemo. Haldane: a great public servant, much maligned, If you spent a day at Action Park you took your life in your hands, Finally: Diamond and Silk are releasing a book, Where are the scents of yesterday? I met an old friend from school who lived up in Harlem and she drove me out. Or I should say the boundaries you think are there tend to fall away. A neighbor of the Patchett's described Sooki as a saint. Its like a Nol Coward play but not as witty. Her best friends lost everything in that fire. When I look back on those first few months of the pandemic, all I will remember is recurrent pancreatic cancer. We did our best to pretend that what we were doing was normal. Sooki was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, and Patchett's husband Karl is a doctor with some serious hookups, so Patchett arranged for Sooki to come to his I need to find a Belvedere martini.. Copyright 2023 SurvivorNet, Inc. All Rights Reserved. I'll see if I can get her into a trial here in Nashville. Get Access to Print and Digital for In the basement apartment jokingly called the VanDevender Home for Wayward Girls Sooki does what shes wanted to do all her life: paint. That night I tried to explain it to Karl. 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Sparky had crawled onto my chest and gone to sleep. Spanish for straight, direct. Wed had a very good life. FOLFIRINOX had also given her a profound aversion to cold. Like, I really understand that I'm going to die, but I don't want the whole novel to be wiped out. A month later, I still hadnt seen all the clothes she had brought with her, and I never saw the cold caps. You two go and Ill have dinner ready by the time you get back. It was the practical solution, and so they left. Pancreatic cancer is an aggressive disease that is difficult to detect because symptoms - including jaundice and weight loss - typically present at a later stage in the cancer's development. But my eye keeps going to her. In fact we were so exactly in the middle of history that we had no way of understanding what we were seeing. I was going only for the night. My mother raised me to be very religious, very God-conscious. Something happened to it while I was in the shower., She shook her head. 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